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GROWING UP TO GUILT.

GROWING UP TO GUILT.
Growing up is it a guilt? Is it a form of fear? What is the koko about?
Some days back I went to order food at the family restaurant, at their home luckily for me I got there the food was already good to go so I paid, took my orders and left on my way back home I had to walk home because my cars bad so it got to be a long walk home.
While walking home it was a bit sunny afternoon and my toe aches a bit but I just had a shout “GOOD MORNING” . I looked at the side it was a little girl should be in 3 – 5 years holding a jerry can of water at the tap shouting good morning sir, I just said thanks and she said welcome.
I walked a bit and paused sat under the casted shadow of a tree, looking at her so pretty, energetic and they were playing with the tap water and splashing water on themselves. A whole lot of questions popped on my mind:-
What is she thinking?
Does she have to shy away from her lover or crush?
Does she have to fix her hair buy braz or peruiv?
Does she have to wash her pictures on instagram?
Does she have to club, drink, smoke?
Kids are really blessings right?
when they are hungry……………………………….CRIES
when the need sweets or biscuits……………………………..CRIES
When they are feeling sleepy…………………………………… CRIES
chased out of school because of any fees……………………………CRIES
When its Christmas, birthday, new year, easter clothes ……………………………CRIES
And so on…………………………………… CRIES.
Now I try to narrow it down from mine perception… that the more we grow up what do we actually embrace?
Been pondering on this same topic really yes I am!! WE EMBRACE GUILT.
But we call it “GROWING UP” , growing up is it?
When you have to think about defiantly everything?
How do I recharge my phone?
How do I lie to get out of this mess?
 How do I love 10 people at the same time without any knowing any other?
How do I pay this bill, that bill, all bills?
How I do I want my family to be?
To be continued…..
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